Yes, that's my form teacher, Mrs Goh. =D
Right, well, since I missed last night, Imma post about what happened yesterday, today! I know, it ain't my style. I usually post at night what happens on the day itself, but I was too tired last night. Hah.
Well, I woke up quite early yesterday, like at 10.30. Ok, considering where I needed to go, it wasn't that early. I had to eat a big breakfast, cause I was out of cash. Boohoo. So... ...
I watched the E.M.A.s today. Yeah.
And what am I thinking? Well, I don't usually do this, but I guess I'll be real personal in this post.
At the moment, I'm feeling a whole lot of emotions. And topping them all is confusion and guilt. I'm confused about what I'm supposed to do, and what you really want. As much as I want you with me, I just want you to be happy. And I'm wondering now, what really makes you happy? I'm constantly stepping back and forth, cause I'm not sure which way I wanna go. I'm stuck between my own morals and my own selfishness. And speaking of morals, it's really not like me to go and hurt someone else unconditionally just for my own happiness. At least, not deliberately.
My older brother taught me the 'Rules of Engagement', or however it should be called, and doing this is pretty much breaking a lot of those rules, and at the same time, enforcing others too. In other words, I'm being pulled in both directions, by many different things. And at the moment, my decision has been to stay in the spot.
Eh, eh, Ama, cheer up uhh. And happy birthday! =D